i don't use this often.

just thought i'd let yall know :)

p.s. i love life :)

so i doubt anyone will read this cause no one goes on xanga anymore but here it goes. to start off i'm just really confused. mostly about friends. not anyone in particular but i'm just trying to figure out who my true friends are and who the fake ones are, or the one's who are friends with me sometimes. i'm sick of the fakeness and the drama. i'd rather have a couple of true good friends then shitloads of fake friends. i feel like as more time goes by you learn more about people and who they really are. first impressions don't mean much anymore. its hard to tell who's real anymore. it seems that to figure out who's a real friend is to be put in a sucky situation and see who stays to help and who says oh that sucks and turns a cold shoulder. i'd rather someone tell me that they aren't really my friend and end on good terms then have to find out the hard way and end on bad terms.

i've also realized recently that life is a really big learning process. i mean you always here about that stuff. but it truly is. to be honest i've made my share of mistakes recently, and i've learned alot from them. i realized that you can't think so much, you just gotta go with what your heart tells you. i've learned that its best to stick up for what you believe in no matter what happens. i've learned that its better to learn from your mistakes then to regret them. i've learned that the best thing to do is be yourself and if people don't like it then they aren't worth it. i've found that sometimes things gotta get really bad before they get better. i've learned that life hurts alot, but you have to move on and that it only makes you stronger. but most of all i've learned that to learn, and to grow, and to mature, you have to make mistakes.

if you took the time to read this then thank you. i hope to hear some feedback.

yours truly,
melanie <3

well i know its a bit late but mulan was absolutely incredible. it was easily one of the best/ most exhilarating experiences of my life. it was also easily the best show i've ever been in. and not only was it an amazing show, but the people and all the time spent was just absolutely freaking incredible. to anyone who was in the cast or was a part of the show- i love you oh so dearly and you all have a place in my heart. marcie, abby, jackie and nancy (and jake&alicia)- you are all incredible and i'm so glad i had this opportunity to work with you, you all have a special place in my heart.

seuss is going pretty good. it doesn't even compare to mulan but its still good. our cast is really good and all that stuff and i'm having a good time as well. the show itself i am sure will be really good. rob & chunter (i still can't bring myself to call him chad) are really good and absolutely hilarious together.

besides that life isn't too horrible. band camp is coming up although i'm missing lots of it for seuss. other than that i love my friends more then anything and they are the only thing that keeps me going and i love them dearly for that.

peace&love

i figured i'd post my one month entry. haha today is preview day for mulan and auds for seusical. i'm siked but at the same time really nervous. there are soooooo many good people in seussical. and mulan is going to be INCREDIBLE. haha. well thats pretty much my entry. its early and i don't feel like writing more haha. peaceee <3